[ when she does, brilith pulls her hand away with a shaky breath. choosing to live is... more difficult than she'd imagined, for reasons that never even occurred to her. it solidifies her decision, though - if she manages to find a way back, she won't stay any longer than that. what would even be the point?
eventually, her eyes turn back to agni. how is it, she wonders, that after so many years and so much abuse, that he still loves her? as she pulls her hand away from his, brilith wonders if she'll ever understand. as she places it on his uninjured arm instead and pulls gently, she wonders why she still believes in him and loves him, even after all he's done.
as she rises to her toes so her lips can reach his, she wonders if any of it matters at all. ]
whatever agni was expecting, it wasn't this. he can't use insight on her, after all, and even if he could—somehow, he doubts brilith expected this either.
things will never be as they once were, between them. there's too much baggage, too much pain. too many things they no longer know how to say to each other.
caught off-guard, he doesn't react. but, for a moment, he's reminded of what they lost.]
[ she releases him, and falls back on her heels. ]
Even I don't know what that is.
[ all week, she's wondered if she's going crazy. now, brilith thinks it must be so. her mind feels like a maze that no one, not even herself, can navigate. if agni knew, would he really want anything to do with her? ]
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eventually, her eyes turn back to agni. how is it, she wonders, that after so many years and so much abuse, that he still loves her? as she pulls her hand away from his, brilith wonders if she'll ever understand. as she places it on his uninjured arm instead and pulls gently, she wonders why she still believes in him and loves him, even after all he's done.
as she rises to her toes so her lips can reach his, she wonders if any of it matters at all. ]
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whatever agni was expecting, it wasn't this. he can't use insight on her, after all, and even if he could—somehow, he doubts brilith expected this either.
things will never be as they once were, between them. there's too much baggage, too much pain. too many things they no longer know how to say to each other.
caught off-guard, he doesn't react. but, for a moment, he's reminded of what they lost.]
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You're really going to let me do this?
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[ she releases him, and falls back on her heels. ]
Even I don't know what that is.
[ all week, she's wondered if she's going crazy. now, brilith thinks it must be so. her mind feels like a maze that no one, not even herself, can navigate. if agni knew, would he really want anything to do with her? ]
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... All things considered, you've held yourself together better than I expected.
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No, I haven't. I'm just good at pretending.
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[ she sighs, far more tired than she's willing to admit. ]
...I should get back to Luna.
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Find somewhere to rest. Your wounds will heal faster that way.
[ that's all she can think to say, so... she heads back to the house. ]
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